wassssup . chillin with my boyfriend and his lil broz . Ohyeeee

has been up and down, side to side and inside out. honestly.

i’ve been through some hard times, and some good times. i’ve learnt things and matured, but i’ve given up and been weak at times too. i’ve lost some people through this year and gained friendships too.

in january, i celebrated the new year in bali. i had a boyfriend, jesse & things seemed so good. i was pretty young, only 16 and not ready for the stress of year 12. i was stubborn and carefree, my relationship and my friends was the most important thing in my life. who cared about putting my head down to study? i didn’t.

february came along. hey school time. early mornings, study, and homework on the first day of school came homework. i didn’t care. my boyfriend was at school, i wanted to see him. i wanted to be a cool kid and sit in the common room gossiping with my best friends. who cared. it was summer, and i wanted to go to the beach after school, study? na man.

then came march … things started to change, i started to change my actions. and my relationship, wasn’t so good. i started to annoy my friends as well, my friends and my relationship was clashing. i was studying, but honestly not much. history was the worst, i couldn’t remember a thing. my parents started yelling at me a lot and it was always my fault for family arguments. they wanted the best for me, i didn’t care. along came alif. my ex boyfriend from 2009. big mistake, honestly. i started talking to him every night, and it was so easy to fall for him all over again. i’m sorry jesse, this was where things went wrong.

april, i spent alot of time at the city instead of studying at home. my parents left me with my god parents and they went to bali; best holiday. i went out when i wanted, and i had no one nagging me to study or anything. i spent time with alif, james and yanti alot. and alot of money went into timezone pictures aha. i also met up with jk. that didn’t go very far.

the end of me and jesse was in may, my birthday month. i gave up with school, especially history. i was cocky and said to myself that i would try better in semester two. all i cared about was my birthday gathering, that wasn’t that good anyway. oh, and the day of my gathering, i had the first fight of the year with my best friend, malia. proves that we all fight over the most stupid things and that sometimes we care too much.

june, the end of school for the semester and i’m off to bali. but i was leaving alif, and i wasn’t happy about it. no matter what i couldn’t completely trust him. i left alif, james and yanti standing at the airport when i got on the plane to bali. it was a good holiday, me and alif broke up while i was away, because i was “too close” to my parents best friend’s son, alex. but as i find out, alif couldn’t even be true to me while i was away from home. i guess, this is where i learnt the hardship of life. again, the same boy i had let into my life, had hurt me. it made me stronger, i refused to cry, and i refused to be hurt, even if i was dying inside. i spent everyday for two weeks with alex and his family, i was like the third child in the family. the night he left, i was heartbroken. i cried and cried, and i became closer to my parents friend paul, who i call “uncle”. tarli came to bali, and for a week i don’t think i could be any happier! this is where she became my best friend. i felt like i was losing malia, and i was hurting. to top it off, i had fights with my friends in bali, doglas. who used to be my best friend, he no longer talks to me, from one single stupid fight.

july, i started school again, i was more determined to show my parents i could study and try my hardest. it was hard to focus, but i did it. my marks improved. i was in a long distance relationship, it was extremely hard. extremely.

august .. my best friend falls in love with me. i learnt to deal with the challenges and demands of other people; i couldn’t keep everyone happy. i went to tarli’s every weekend though, and no matter what i did, i was trying to keep happy even when i wasn’t feeling it.

september, alex comes to perth for a week. it was a good week, i had waited so long for this. but at the same time, i had to prove my knowledge and sit my mock exams at school. it was so stressful. sitting these exams i had to put up with constant bullshit from teenage and high school dramas. i was the gossip of our high school for quite a while. it was .. shit.

october, HEY GRADUATION! :D best time, best feeling. to finish my 13 years of schooling in one night, was amazing. i had finished school finally. but i had to study as much as i possibly could. i was still in this long distance relationship, and i was feeling .. empty. or lost.

november 2nd, i had my first major exam. the one that determines my future. 4 exams in a month, it was stressful to study, and keep my friends and still see them. the 23rd of november, i got on the plane to bali. SCHOOLIES<3 spending time with the girls, and clubbing .. it was good.

december, still in bali - chilling and spending time with friends, it’s good. 22nd of december and i’m still in bali, waiting for christmas eve to go clubbing again, and then i shall be back to perth with my friends and family on the 20th of january. new years eve i’ll see the new year in with my girls, and in january i’ll find the results of my exams.

family, friends, ex boyfriends, boyfriends and everyone that i’ve been with this year has had an impact on my life. even with the fights and the tears, the smiles and the laughter, so many people i have to thank for 2010.

my mum, malia, tarli, steven, hien, michael, rose, alex & his family, kaija, mariah, james, yanti, shantae, dian, echie, vanie, doglas, sian, uncle paul, linhvy, charlie,

and anyone i forgot.